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so i finally have some time to collect my thoughts a bit and write.  i have one more final, and then i’m free of school work for about two weeks before i fly away and start it all over again, but at least i’ll be foreign this time, and it won’t be related to what is pictured.  finals seem to always make me more glad that the class is over than anything because of the stress involved with the two weeks before finals, and then finals week itself.  so regardless of how i felt i did, unless i nearly failed, i’m always glad to be done and away from that work.  finishing finals never ceases to feel great.  of course, it always feels better when you know you nailed the final, but i find that that’s getting more and more impossible to do given the type of work i’ve been doing.  it’s always possible to feel great after a test and then get it back a week later and realize you got a 5 percent.

if you can’t tell by my other posts, i’ve had an increased fascination with synthesis in music.  maybe it’s because i grew up hearing 80s music, or maybe it’s my new found love of frankmusik, but i just love the darn things.  a keyboard covered in nobs with infinite possibilities is just too cool.  i think fate landed me in electrical engineering because it’s been perfect.  the connections between what we learn about circuits and how that affects waves, which is basically sounds, is incredible.  if i had to built an audio system tomorrow it might not be impossible for me to figure out.  that’s really exciting to me.  my major and my passions have somewhat met up in a weird way.

summer is fast approaching.  though i’m sick with a nasty cough, and still in my dorm room that i’ve been in all year, i feel like it’s just about time to move back into my real home and start hanging out with my biological family again.  i’m currently looking to acquire an 80s synthesizer so i have something to fool around with when i get home.  i might even buy a damaged one and try to fix it up myself.  italy is about three weeks away.  it will be strange to get on a plane and fly somewhere halfway across the world, and everyone will accept that i won’t be around for a month.  i’m stoked.  but the distance between then and now seems quite far.  four finals to tackle monday through thursday of next week.  while my finals seem to be my hardest of my college career yet, i’m not nearly as worried as i have been in the past.  maybe because some of the weeks of this semester earlier were harder than any finals week could be.  i used to hate getting too sucked into school work, but after this semester, i’ve realized that no matter how hellish it seems in the beginning, the more i just get adjusted by the end and accept it.  and this is a good thing, because i end up happier than i would be if i tried to stay stuck in my ways.  i feel good when i feel productive.  hopefully the summer will be productive besides italy.

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